Disempowerment
I have had two rather unsettling experiences as of late, both leaving me rather discouraged and questioning why I should bother involving myself in certain volunteer activities. I was asked by one friend to take over managing something as part of a church endeavor saying I did a good job, but then in two challenging moments of crisis for them they defaulted back to their control and started doing the thing they asked me to do without even telling me. I was having a hard time believing they genuinely trusted me and just as I was starting to feel that they did trust me to do the work, suddenly they showed they didn't. Despite this chain of events they tried to maintain they thought I was doing a good job. Another destabilizing experience was where I was asked to help capture some event on video by my friend, and I was feeling rather insecure thinking I don't have a lot of experience doing this kind of thing. I spent a long time considering how to manage all the aspects of not d